Who Am I – Casting Crowns Music Code

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Plastic Bags

Long time ago people use baskets and net bags when they buy in the market or when they buy grocery in grocery store, but when time go by many people use plastic bags because it is disposable and easy to use, that’s why when you buy vegetable and meat in the market you also bring lots of plastic bags with you.

Plastic bag is so cheap to buy and every time you buy they gave it for free and some people don’t recycle it they just throw it anywhere that most of the time a reason why there is flooding.
Plastic bag don’t melt and it cannot use as fertilizer but can be recycle. More and more people became lazy and careless in making proper disposal of their garbage. They don’t know that plastic factory blows harmful materials in the atmosphere and make air pollute. The more we use plastic bag and don’t recycle them the more we put our country in danger.

In the Philippines 60 t0 70 percent of our garbage is plastic and most of them are plastic bag that we get in the grocery and in wet market, some organization helps educates some people to recycle. Some people use plastic bags to make some crafty stylish curtain or a decoration.
In Europe they already practice recycle long time ago. They know that when population arise and garbage will be a big problem to control. So when you buy things or grocery in the market you also will pay extra for plastic a bag that’s why you should bring basket or bag with you. When you don’t segregate your garbage you also pay fines so European force to disposed their own garbage properly.

Imagine when you go to the market everyday when you don’t bring you own bag, how many bags will you get after a week?
I always have problem with that as I always buy grocery everyday to get fresh vegetable and meat, when I get home I also bring to much plastic bags but I learn to solve my problems. I bring my grocery bag or sometimes I only use one plastic bag and tell the cashier not to give me extra plastic bag. It’s nice to be that way in that case you help the earth and also help others and became a good example for people who don’t. Care about preserving our planet and make it cleaner

Paper bag is also nice. It disposable and it will decay and can be use as fertilizer and it can be decomposed. Paper bags is mostly make of recycled materials but sometimes it’s complicated to use and somewhat expensive. When paper gets wet and get dirty and smelly it will be good not to use it. Paper bag is somewhat better than plastic bags. But in our country it’s not best solutions like me who always buy because we have much rains here.
The better solution which I think the answer of our problem in terms of too many plastic bags in our stockroom is the canvas bag or a cloth bags.

Yes its bit expensive but we can always used them and wash when it gets dirty and smelly. I already try to use the bag it’s durable and handy and make your shopping time less effort.
Here in the Philippines market bag like this is not so popular but when we practice using bags like this we help decreases garbage and prevent floods. Plastic usually the reason of clogging in our canals,

You can buy cloth bags in the mall or even in the market, its bit costly but yet helpful to save your money, instead always buy plastic grocery bag for 5 peso a piece market bag usually cost you 3o to 40 peso and long lasting.
This is a simple way of helping our country to a harmful effect of pollution and to make a better clean place for us like other country. When our place is clean the more investor wants to invest, the more job will be open for us.

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Condoms Vs the Pope

Why does Catholics against condoms? It’s a question that bothered me a lot that gives me a reason to think and study to get some clear views and understanding. As what I learn based in my reading and based in people’s views the reason why pope against condoms because it contradict the teaching of the church and it also perverting the law of marriage with both men and woman should practice the natural way of sex.

Catholic is against of Fornication and adultery and believes that sex is only for those who are marriage and not for those who only practise sex for pleasure, everyone who practice sex outside marriage is fornication and everyone who is marriage and have sex with anyone is adultery. When all favour in condoms they believe that we also allows young people or anybody commit fornication.

Catholics believe that God created us with purpose to multiply and those who in favour in contraceptives is perverting the purpose of God. Catholics is full of tradition has taught for thousands of years:
1. Single peopl
e should be celibate.
2. Marri
ed people should be faithful to each other (adultery is wrong).
3. Married couples should welcome God's gift of children and, therefore, artificial birth control is agai
nst the will of God.
In regards to sex outside of marriage, the Church makes it a practice not to tell people how to sin. With or without a condom:

• Fornication is still fornication
• Adultery is still adultery
• Rape is still rape

With all of that Tradition I also ask myself why many of Catholics don’t practice it, all though some of them are really devoted to their believes, I know many of them who even works in the church practice sex outside marriages and even some priest committed fornication having sex with their same sex in secret, If Pope want to ban condoms because it is sin and it is perverting the natural way of sex which only married people perform then Pope should also punish those homosexual priest and church workers that’s rapes innocent boys.

Pope should also fired those priest who make someone pregnant because it against their law, they abort the babies and that is horrible crime and must punish according to the law. If we based in Gods Purpose which most of the time they teach in wedding ceremony that we must all multiply and be many; Pope already violating the law of God.

You cannot control your own nature as sinners, and you cannot make people guilty and make them follow what you teach if you also violating something. What we can do is to give some advice and try to look for solutions to the problems. We only rresponsible to ourselves and no one can tell you what you do and what you don’t do.

AIDS is a world epidemic, a public-health problem that must be confronted with scientific advances and methods that have proven effective, Rejecting condom use is to oppose the fight for life. We must need to protect humanity with the deadly aids and people even pope need to take heed. When we opposed to condom we also try to destroy our future.

In the Philippines Aids is growing and the danger is free sex is very rampant here, Many young people practise sex without protection. Based in experience it is very easy to find sexual partner in the internet and most of them is younger than 18 years old. Internet prostitution is also popular; some young boys get easy and instant money from the foreigners who they found in some dating websites.

Many people is too far from reality, “why” because we still focus in tradition without knowing that earth evolve and that everything change faster than we can’t imagine. Although sex is not a taboo anymore but still many are confused about using protection or don’t think first before making an act. I still remember the Jokes which I always heard “eating candy with wrapper is unpleasant and nasty than eating without wrapper”,

Now I don’t Understand why Catholic try to ban condoms, if they want to ban condom then they should be prepared in worse things to come like problems such as over population, aids, poverty and job shortages and Philippines is not ready to face another huge problems that affects not just us but also our children in the next generation, and you know who to blame? Those leaders who being control by religion and those leaders, who don’t practice their power in the right way,

I am not against in Catholics I am just worries of what will happened when people ban something that might help to control population and the spreading of sexual diseases and create problems in the future.

For me it sounds like Catholics wants to be involving more in politics things. The more they get involve, the more power they get and when they have so much power the more they have the change to control people, just like in past time. I was born Catholic my parents are catholic there are many laws you have to consider but when I search the Bible much more; now I see the error they teach.

Condoms is not a way to give reason for the young people to be involve more in sex because even with or without condoms many people is sexually active and we like it or not nobody can control people ways or gratifying them self. Especially when most of the times media show programs that catch people sexual desire specially kids and teenagers who became more curios in sex. I just wonder why some people against in condom but they are not against with TV programs that show girls wearing almost nothing.

I came from a big family and it is not good lots of responsibilities and pressure because my family expecting something for me. Now when Contraceptive is ban; how many family will suffer and how fast will be our population grows and where will people get a job when only few job offers. How many kids can’t able to go to school because of financial crises? As what I learn people became sexual active in times of crises because that is one of their coping mechanisms to release their emotion to once out of the reality.

I don’t care what people thing but for me I am not against of condom and I wish that people open their mind to see reality not just leaning on tradition that breaks our right to protect our self. And right to choose what we want and not being dictated. Condom is just a funny simple thing but it’s a powerful tool to protect our love one. Condom has nothing to do with fornication and adultery because even before people already practice fornication and adultery in secret and many people die already for not protecting them self.

I wish that our government will stand alone not being controlled, do more for people protecting our country in HIV AIDS and Educate people about family planning and teach young people about sex and how to be protected and help them understand without making them more curious rather educate them to be more responsible human being.

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Unexplored Beauty

unexplored Beauty

When mother nature get angry we cannot stop it and we expect worse thing can happened, in Legazpi City there was a place where many house buried under ground and you see just the roof and many ruin houses that look like you see in the movie, the name of the place is Brngy Padang which many family die and buried alive when mud floods hit their place. Bicol is a mysterious place and the Mt Mayon Proved it with it’s perfectly cone shape and its beauty that amaze tourist. Like some place in Legazpi City there are many place were not yet explored and people don’t found it yet, beautiful landscape that when you see it you know there is history that still untold.
Last March 13, I joined a camp and when I’m in the bus I enjoyed watching the landscapes and so amaze with those big stone which is big like some Filipino houses, be honest I never saw big stone like those in my whole life. For me Bicol is one of mysterious place and I wish Bicolano’s people will do something to improve it and use their artistic talents to make it more amazing in spite of calamities that challenge the place.

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Unlucky but Being Blessed

Unlucky but Being Blessed

I don’t understand why opportunity comes mysteriously without knowing that you already found it. Every opportunity came with the test and trials that sometimes it is hard to figure out it may be a disaster or a problem that gives so many answers for a complicated situation.

I been almost 2 years here in Legazpi in July 30th I’ll be one year, I am blessed to be here and meet friends and specially to experience how it is to live with the Bicolano’s and blessed to have a guardians like daddy frank who act as my parent, but I am unlucky to have situations like you have to wait almost century and wait for many tomorrows.

Have you been waiting for so long and all you do is hoping and wishing? Yes I do experience all of that, I work in chateau Noveau and I think I just get paid half of I am suppose to have, Since Chateau is closed I am just hanging and depending on my dad for food and medicines that I usually take it every day but sometimes I skip it specially when I save something for things I want, I sometimes ask my dad for medicines but sometimes I can’t control myself to be ashamed of always asking something specially he also needed money for the car. But this situation help me to be like ants to save money; my dad gave me 500 a day for lunch and dinner I usually spend 380 or most of the time 450 but depending on the menu I will cook but every week I save not more than 200 but I spend it for my personal need like shampoo and soap so I will not ask my dad for it. I am young and need something for myself i dont even have perfume but i am blessed that i still have good food to eat and able to go somewhere for free and because of this situation i learn to be patient, to be smart and to be idialistic

I get so scared in situation like this sometimes I ask myself what if he will get sick and he will be gone what well happened to me? He is the only Person I can lean on too. He is like my father and that’s why I am afraid to lose him. Do you know? I don’t have nothing really there are only 2 people help me in this time Berny who is there for me inspired me to stay and beloved and dad who support me and love me. I am blessed to have them both even I am unlucky to have this hard risky situation.

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Greatest Adventure

My lonely day and my greatest adventures

Being independent is fun and you can do anything you want for yourself without anybody telling you what to do but it also not easy when you are out of control knowing you are on your own. Many young people want to be alone and start to face what world can offer for individual without thinking that life is not easy as what they think it is. After high school 15 years old I become Independent I work for myself and I start to learn to solve my own problem and make solutions. There are times that when I see someone my age have everything and don’t have to work to get what they want I feel down and start asking God why, but when I see the positive side of being free and so independent I feel proud of myself. Do you know; there is no happiness in the world when you receive money from your hard work.

Being Independent will help you learn to survive, make you strong to fight in times of troubles in short you will be mature than anybody. But be honest sometimes I want to be a baby again; I want to feel what it is like to have someone who care.
I remember the times when everything is chaos, I started to feel something going on in myself, I don’t have confident to talk to strangers, I vomit after I eat full meals, I start to feel shame to entertain people and it’s hard to figure out what wrong with me. My voice change, my body change, I feel sick all the time and I start to fall in love but I don’t even know what it feels to be in love and it was strange for me, and sad to say I don’t know where to go and where to seek an advices. I am always afraid and always try to cope up with many changes happening in myself. I think all young boys experience getting so horny when they sleep and even when they woke up, will for me I thought I have penis cancer and it worries me, and the worse is I was attractive to my same sex and I thought I was crazy, I am so worried and I feel so alone wanted to kill myself. I don’t have lots of friends I am afraid to meet people too. I even don’t want my family knows what’s going on in me, the only person I can talk with my curiosity is James but he cannot relate with my problems.

I was 17 when I start to learn how to use and connect internet, there I was so addicted to search information and make friends in chat. Until I learn to surf the net, learn to make a yahoo account and listen music but I don’t know that internet will lead me into a worse trials in life. I became an internet addict; I spend my money for internet instead of saving it for my school project, I use internet to release my depressions and I became more curious and secretly addicted to porn. Porn leads me into a serious problem and that is sex. I having sex when I was just 17 secretly, somebody teach me where to find sex mate in the chat, so whenever I feel lonely and wanted to have someone to talk to I go to the internet cafe and chat. I use sex as medicine, whenever I wanted attention without knowing that my sex mate just wants me because I am too young, not because they want me as friend.

Everything has a price so after sex is guilt that kills me, I feel so ashamed of myself, and I feel so dirty and feel like I’m useless. Being far from my family and live in stranger place alone is quite difficult specially troubles seems like no ending so I started to realize that if I don’t fight for my depression I will never be successful and I can never help my family. So I use my family as inspiration, I more active in going to church, read my Bible and try to help myself without anybody. I became a therapist for myself and even help James and some of my classmate, whenever my classmates ask advices they go to me and I give them a piece of advice but they don’t know I also needed advices. My inspiration therapy helps me to learn not to be shame with people, I have more confident to meet friends and hung with my classmates and friends but my sex and porn addict is still there.

I was 19 when the institution which I work with kick me out or fired me because they found out about me was being addicted to porn. So after my Practical Nursing Graduation I move place but I never go back to my family, in spite I work as a tutor with the help of my friend. I teach 2 kids and one American teenage girl but after months a quit because my x boss told anybody I am a dangerous person because I am a sex and porn addict and capable to rape anyone I like. I was totally disappointed because I never have thought about raping anyone, as a matter of fact I am more kind and hard honest than those people who work with them. But you know that moment I became so weak and sick, I blame myself for all that happened to me. I talk to myself in the mirror, I walk in the street with my mind blank, and I don’t know where to go. Funny this is God is good; I go to a prayer meeting every Wednesday and Friday just to have free meals but the shocking thing is, for many weeks of attending prayer meeting I get hired. A pastor hired me as his personal assistant, free board, with allowance and salary per weeks so I grab the opportunity and I work with him for more than 2 years but my journey don’t stay just there, I took a risk I resign and go to manila but I don’t have luck there, I don’t like manila at all so I go back to my Pastor and work there for a while but everything change and some un expected situation I make mistake but lucky I have an angel. A Person from Switzerland help me get a job in Legazpi City so July 30 2008, I first saw the perfect cone volcano I dream to see in real and I meet the person who love me in spite of who I am and that’s Berny and a person who love me as his real son and that is daddy frank here in Legazpi city. Now at the present I realize that life is full of adventure and trials, when we give up we also give up all the possible nice future we have that is near to come. Because life is like a game we take a risk and hope to win by trying and trying.

Now I am old; I am 25 but still try to fight and still taking risk and hope that I have a successful future. If a fall again and again I will still never give up. Sometimes I feel so lonely depress and scared but when I see how God carry me in his arms I feel like I am safe. For the troubles that happened to me he never let me go. Now I don’t keep secret when I feel something I voice it out better than keep it in myself. I have bulimia but now I know I am almost there to recover from it without the help of the therapist. I still have some phobia from the past but I can easy cope up with it by thinking positive. The only serious problem I have is some side effect of bulimia and being paranoid.



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The Past

Surviving from the past

There are many things we never forget from the past it might be good or bad that happened that’s hard to let go, it is like a shadow that keep following you where ever you go. Past is not easy to forget specially when it is painful or traumatic it always give you nightmare when you sleep and sometimes it make us judge mental in many ways, but learning from the past is the best way to mold us to be a better person; it help us to be more stronger, idealistic, smarter and very creative to overcome same situations that we already encounter. There is popular quote that we always remember when we remember some memory we try to erase in our mind and it says; past is past, simple word but yet very meaningful, but many people used this quote to cope up with pain they feel inside. But the truth is you cannot forget and over the pain from the past if you are not willing to accept it and welling to learn from it. Because the more you hate to remember it the more you can’t overcome with it, It’s nice to be free from all the trauma and start over again but the truth is life is circle and don’t expect that we will never experience again the same what we experience before. The secret to be happy is to think that we only human and make mistakes and no matter what we do avoid stress in life we still experience all unexpected things.

There are negative attitude that we get from the past and it is dangerous if we don’t do something with it. And it makes us do something we will regret in the future.

1. Being Judge mental – we sometimes think that people around us are the same and this will lead us not to trust anyone.

2. Perfectionist – we became perfectionist because we are afraid to experience what we experience from the past

3. Hatred – we intend to hate anyone we don’t like, it’s hard for us to forgive and forget and this we lead us into some serious problem and that is revenge

4. Very choosy – we only choose people we like to hu8ng with and never give change to know others

5. Obsess – we are more obsessed in things we want. We don’t like to give up because we are afraid to try something new

There are many negative attitudes that we might have when we don’t learn to overcome the trauma from the past, which will make us a dangerous person; it will make yourself turn to be a person you hate. But in spite of those entire negative attitude; we can get also good attitude from the past by accepting what was happened.

1. Being sensitive – we are more sensitive to anyone because we don’t like them to experience what we experience

2. Smarter – we are more smarter than before we know how to deal certain problem and solve it without somebody

3. Stronger – we are more stronger easy to overcome tress in life and not afraid to face new adventures in life

4. Creative – we are creative to plan and make ideas and we love to be corrected and easy to make correction to handle hard situation. That’s why we love to advice somebody who experience the same what we experience

5. Open minded – we are more open in many ways. Because we know how to cope up

6. Honest – we are more honest and down to earth because we believe that everything has its own purpose.

Those are many positive attitude that we get from the past beside those which in the list, we can only have them when we truly ready to face the world again without being afraid to face and fight the trauma from the past. It’s not easy to be overcome because that is not overnight therapy, it’s a step by step and sometimes by the help of your friend and family you will be successful like me.

There are many tips to voice out what you feel. Write it out and make blogs like I do, the more you let it go the more happiness and freedom you feel inside. There are many reasons to be happy, and seems everything is all fine. And this is the reason why I am always ready for adventures in life that even hurricane cannot knock me down.

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